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It's been a while since I've done serious personal art, I guess. Unless you count the doodles I've been making in my dummy. Then I've never stopped.
But I don't count those. They're doodles, and therefore not serious enough.
I think.
In any case, it was nice to work on something slightly personal again instead of all the projects we have for school. Sketching is fun, but I really miss making personal art. I seem to have struck an art block though. The only things that work out well enough are vents... And that sucks.
This was actually supposed to show a demon instead of just mysterious smoke. Sadly, things didn't want to be the way I wanted them to be, and instead of fighting it I accepted that it looked better this way.
The demon was supposed to represent what I'm feeling lately, though. It's the only explanation I have. Some sort of demon has taken me over and is killing me emotionally. I'm terrified of myself because I see now that I have absolutely no insight in what I'm capable of.
Filling in a form to get some social worker to help me made me realize how far I have let this come.
And I am so, so ashamed to admit that my turning point was something stupid as heartbreak.
But I don't count those. They're doodles, and therefore not serious enough.
I think.
In any case, it was nice to work on something slightly personal again instead of all the projects we have for school. Sketching is fun, but I really miss making personal art. I seem to have struck an art block though. The only things that work out well enough are vents... And that sucks.
This was actually supposed to show a demon instead of just mysterious smoke. Sadly, things didn't want to be the way I wanted them to be, and instead of fighting it I accepted that it looked better this way.
The demon was supposed to represent what I'm feeling lately, though. It's the only explanation I have. Some sort of demon has taken me over and is killing me emotionally. I'm terrified of myself because I see now that I have absolutely no insight in what I'm capable of.
Filling in a form to get some social worker to help me made me realize how far I have let this come.
And I am so, so ashamed to admit that my turning point was something stupid as heartbreak.
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